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Prompt #21 - Untold story
Prompt #21 "There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you." - Mayay Angelou

There are a lot of things I want to tell people but I don’t seem to be able to. It’s not that I can’t find the words, my vocabulary is excellent, it’s saying the words I find difficult. Opening up to people, telling them your deepest thoughts, fears, desires, is the hardest thing a man can do.

There are things I wanted to tell my father when he was alive, but that opportunity is lost. I can tell him those things now he’s dead but now they no longer make any difference. Telling him my memories of him and my mother no longer as the same effect. He’s not part of this world now.

I have good memories of them. I was only young when my mother died so my memories of her are not as clear as they might be. But I remember warm feelings of her and my father together, the three of us as a family, one of the few times I can recall having that feeling.

But I never told my father how much that time meant to me.