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Prompt # 27 Look into your heart
Prompt 27
If you look into your own heart, and you find nothing wrong there, what is there to worry about? What is there to fear? – Confucius

I used to fear finding something, anything in my heart. Emotion has never been one of my strengths. Dealing with something in my heart is…difficult. It’s much easier to ignore that it exists. That way it doesn’t interfere with things, with what I’m doing. I’m not familiar with what’s in my heart; I’m not familiar with looking there. Perhaps I should. Even if I did I’m not sure I’d be a very good judge of what was wrong with it, if something was.

It’s a place that I’ve looked at so few times in my life. Matters of the heart are something that I’ve tried to ignore for many years. Of course there have been times when I’ve had to look into my heart but I’ve never been able to interpret things in the same way I imagine most people do.

I fear just looking I suppose, and I imagine perhaps that isn’t something that I should fear. I shouldn’t be afraid to look inside my own heart. I shouldn’t be afraid of what I might find. Sadly my experience hasn’t always been good. There have been times where I’ve looked into my heart and seen love when in fact it was not love but many other emotions. I’m afraid I can’t tell the difference, what is good for my heart and what isn’t.

I do know however that Ray might. I know that Ray might be able to tell me about my heart, he’s more skilled in matters of the heart than I am. Perhaps I should ask him. Yes, Ray would know. He would also show me there is nothing to fear.